The Girl Behind The Mask

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          Do you know me? You might think you do but there is more to me than what you see. The world is a masquerade where everybody wears a mask. There are others who wear layers of masks. You might think this is the real one but there is someone else hiding behind that mask.  Only few know the real you. Am I who you think I am? Or is it just part of the act? You may know me but you don’t really. You may see me as someone who is nice, quiet and shy but deep inside I’m not. I’m the complete opposite of those. Maybe those who’ve been with me long enough know. I learned to build walls around myself. I may have done this unconsciously, but I built those walls to protect myself – my true self – emotionally. The real me is inside a fortress that no one has yet taken under siege. I wear an impenetrable armor that shields my true self but like every armor, mine also has a chink – a weakness that is there but no one knows where. I learned to be someone who may seem me but not really me. Only few had a glimpse of who I truly am behind the mask. I don’t like bothering people with my problems. I prefer to face them alone, if possible. I don’t like being a burden to people. I’d rather work alone. I despise those people who are inconsiderate. I hate those who waste their talents. I don’t like spending time socializing and going outdoors. I’d rather be alone and stay at home. I am never comfortable around lots of strangers. I enjoy just being around my little circle. I am satisfied with just the few friends I have. I am very judgmental. I judge people most of the time. It’s like a hobby but I keep most of my opinions and criticisms to myself.  I am a perfectionist. I hate things that are not done perfectly. It irritates me. I don’t like making mistakes. I want everything to be perfect. I trust reason rather than feelings. I believe feelings are valid only if they are logical. That’s why the head is positioned higher than the heart. Some people may see me as heartless, cold, insensitive or uncaring. I don’t have anything against it ‘cause that’s just the way I am. I tend to be unbiased and direct when I analyze people’s problems, even if this might hurt their sensitivities. I value logic, justice and fairness. I trust facts, concrete examples and proof. I hate things that are not sure. I respond after taking the time to think things through, and I enjoy a slower pace. I hate being pressured. I want things done slowly but surely. I don’t like doing things in a hurry, so I tend to plan ahead. I don’t like it when things go unplanned. I hate it when I’m not prepared. I want to plan things before I act, so I do it right the first time and avoid doing it again. I am much more comfortable in having solid plans that are real – concrete rather than silly ideas. I know there are people out there who fear me but it doesn’t bother me at all. I like it when people fear me. It gives me a feeling of superiority. I’m sure, there are lots of people who dislike me but I don’t care. After all, you can’t please everybody. Let me tell you a secret, or maybe this is no secret at all, you may see an angel but think again. It may be a devil in an angel’s disguise…

 

 

~YSA

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21 thoughts on “The Girl Behind The Mask

  1. Hmm.. What do I think of you? You observe first before doing an action. You are very talkative when you are with your acquaintances, but it suddenly becomes the opposite whenever you’re troubled with thoughts. You keep your feelings to yourself. And you’re a nice friend that a person like me can always treasure.

    Last but not the least,
    FOR ME, you are a self-proclaimed devil. Cause’ I honestly think that you are an angel that the heaven sent from above because you are a very kind and a heartwarming person. 🙂

    -Lindy

  2. Hmmm…wala akung masabi…HAHAHA!!! Uhmmm…minsan khit ipush m n hndi obvious ung something na nararamdaman mo, obvious talaga… Tapos sa sobrang planning ahead mo pti 50 years ata ng plan mo na… hehehehe…Pero mabait k naman..(wow!) at sa tingin ng iba isa kang sobrang seryosong estudyante, alam nming isa k lng ding simpleng estudyante…tinatamad. Yun at stay k lng as what u are dhil walng special dito na magbabago ka para sa kanila…Yun lng
    -Khrystal

  3. yes i agree:) lahat tayo may may sari-saring maskara saka lang natin malalaman kung sino talaga ang isang tao pag nakasama na natin xa ng matagal at makilala ng masinsinan,:)) heehe

    -Gemma

  4. You seriously deceive everyone. Pero ang tinggin ko sayo dati SPOILED BRAT at motto sa buhay ay ‘I get what I want’ Siguro mali yung tinggin na yun kasi nakikita ko ngayon yung babaeng fragile, na kailangan mong ingatan. Lagi mong iniisip na evil ka behind those masks but on my POV you really an angel, not literally of course! What I mean is you’re just being evil or trying to be one just to hide the real you. You won’t allow anyone to see the real you because you’re to afraid. Yung takot na baka di mo malagpasan o mahigitan yung sinasabi ng tao sa paligid mo. Sabi mo nga gusto mo lahat perfect kaya mahirap para sayo na may maging mali sa ginawa mo.

    Hay, gusto ko sana english lahat kaso ang hirap talaga -___- Kaya yung iba na lang. Kung mali grammar niyan hayaan mo na, okay? (:

    /Jovy

  5. Ysa Tish Julianne Fuentes Velez B…….. xDD bossy? maybe. nakikita ko sayo yung tao na may maraming plano at determinadong may makamit na tagumpay sa buhay.. :)) inspired ako sayo pagdating sa pagaaral saka sa pagiging maparaan mo.. naiirita lang ako sayo minsan kasi alam mo yun? yung nakaearphones na nga ako’t lahat pero naririnig ko pa rin yung boses mo.. xD maingay ka masyado! iba yung pagkakakilala ko sayo nung 1st day saka ngayon.. ikaw yung dalagang Pilipina na swagger.. xDD something like that.. gusto ko yung pagiging masyado mong fluent sa English pati sa pagdedeliver ng isang speech or pagbabasa lang ng english sentence nabibigay mo clearly..yun lang Ysa Tish.. always take care.. papakasalan ka pa ng isang billionaire! 😀

    -Kristine

  6. hey tish … isa lng masasabi ko minsan ang bait mo minsan BAD girl ka XD pag usapang ANIME kayo ni stal ang kausap ko well thanks for that at least may na pag sha-share-an ako ng mga napanuod kong anime .. totoo na to wala na tlaga ko masbi …

    ~Raven

  7. Hi Ysa! You’re serious yet mischievous. I love it when we’re playing around and fighting with each other. Because I get to see your makulit na side. You’re mean and very straight forward. You’re a perfectionist. But you know, we can still have fun even if it is the end of the school year. I hope I can find the time to cope up with you guys. Hahahaha. Thank you for all the answers in Math. Hahaha. Lastly, thank you for the friendship :).

    -Christen :>

  8. hahahaha yan lang masasabi ko pero seryoso sobrang thank you kasi kahit na medyo hindi tayo nag-uusap personally eh alam kong close tayo 🙂 thank you sa lahat kasi isa ka rin sa taong napagsasabihan ko ng problema ko alam mo na yun hahaha 🙂 KAla ko nung una tahimik ka madldal ka rin pala at ubod ng sama :p ingat lagi tsaka magtapat ka na kay papa B hahaha :p ingatsss

    /LAurel :3

  9. Ysaaaa! Hindi ko na mababasahin ‘tong post mo. Ang haba e. Tapos english pa. Baka ma-nosebleed ako ng wala sa oras neto e. Hahahaha! YSA KANG KILLER! =)) Mabait kang nilalang. Kaso medyo badgirl. Hahahaha. Napaka-brutal mo! Ang sakit mo pa manghampas. Ano bang kamay meron ka? Parang bakal e. HAHA. Nakakainggit ka. Antalino mo! Ano ba kinakaen at iniinom mo? XD Hahaha. Thank you sa pagpapakopya sa exams minsan. Hahaha.

    /Mich ❤

  10. Hallow Ysa Velez the girl behind the mask xD haha,ysa,ysa,ysa ikaw ung ysa at sunod mo dalawa haha de joke 🙂 Ikaw yung taong killer xD haha,ikaw ung taong sobrang hinhin ng galaw pati boses pero nsa loob ang kulo,yung bang angel inDisguise haha joke lang 🙂 Pero may tinatago ka namang kabaitan kahit konti,kahit minsan nakakainis kna di ko alam kung bakit eh haha 🙂 pero thankful ako kasi nakakilala?/ encounter ako ng babaing ktulad mo 🙂 Godbless!

    /Natassja ^^v

  11. Hi Ysa ! know what ? I am really really thankful na nakilala kita. Kahit na minsan nakakasakit ka na physically, and mentally hahaha joke 😛 nung una akala ko napaka tahimik mo pero pag kinausap ka na napaka daldal mo pala… ikaw yung taong hindi nauubusan ng sasabihin laging may nakahandang topic dyan sa utak mo.. yung tipong bawat kilos mo kinukwento mo.. hahaha tsaka masaya ka kausap di ako na bobore 🙂 yun lang hahaha

    /laurie

  12. AHA-HA-HA-HA!
    Hey bibi ysaa! Ummm, You’re awesome and well.. Evil!? Hahaha! You’re a kind person, though not that obvious, you care alot about people close to you.. I love your perfectionality!© but sometimes it gets so annoying! You’re such a hardworking person and a great listener too. You’re that friend who has a ridiculously hilarious laugh! Haha! I know you’re that someone that i can lean on to especially with my heartaches 😉 if ya knw what i mean! Stay who you are right now with an extra dose of kindness please? Hahaha! Looking forward to our never-ending chitchats, especially ones that concern Westeros! 🙂 stay true! And thanks for everything!

    -Des

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